Cracked Open by Bobinsana: How She Ignited Emotional Healing, Feminine Awakening, and a Profound Plant Connection

Bobinsana is a sacred plant that has long been revered for its deep connection to the feminine energy of nature. Known for its powerful healing properties, it has been used traditionally by indigenous communities in the Amazon to open the heart and body, guiding individuals through emotional release and spiritual awakening.I sought to connect with Bobinsana not only to release grief and stuck emotions that were manifesting as fierce inflammation in my body, but also to deepen my connection with the shadow parts of myself—the places I had long been too ashamed or too proud to fully explore. I called on Bobinsana as a trusted plant ally to help guide me through this necessary reckoning. Leaving New York City had stirred something deep within me, making it impossible to ignore how disconnected I had become from my own feminine energy, suppressed since childhood. I was also ready to challenge my own skepticism—to find out if I could build a real, powerful bond with a plant I was drawn to, and prove to myself that profound healing isn’t reserved only for the world of psychedelics.

Setting the Intention: Respect and Connection

Working with Bobinsana felt like an honor, especially since I was receiving the tincture from Four Visions—a brand deeply committed to supporting and honoring the indigenous tribes who have safeguarded these plant allies for centuries, and are now allowing the Western world access to their wisdom through high-integrity, high-quality offering. I approached her with the utmost respect, understanding that this was not just about taking a remedy, but about entering into a sacred, symbiotic relationship. To honor this connection, I created a space for myself through prayer, meditation, and journaling. By allowing my intentions to unfold naturally, I aimed to give Bobinsana the space she needed to guide me without the pressure of specific outcomes. I was simply there to listen, trust, and receive what she had to offer.

I also committed to following a traditional Bobinsana dieta, which meant abstaining from sugar, salt, oils, spices, meat, caffeine & alcohol, processed foods, and anything that could cloud my connection to the plant’s spirit. Daily, I made it a point to connect with nature, honoring her request for simplicity and presence. I initiated the dieta with a cold, barefoot walk on the beach, immersing my feet into the icy ocean waters for as long as I could bear. I set my intention, asking Bobinsana to help me release all that was no longer serving me and to create space within me for the new energy and healing that was ready to come in.

The Feminine Goddess Energy of Bobinsana

What struck me most deeply during my experience with Bobinsana was the undeniable presence of her feminine, goddess-like energy. I could feel her gentle nurturing force wrapping around me offering guidance. Her energy moved through me with ease and grace, and as it did, old emotions began to surface. Unexpectedly, I found myself releasing long-held pains and stories through deep, long cries. I felt cracked open and vulnerable, but not unsafe. It was as though Bobinsana was holding me in a protective, loving cocoon, allowing me to feel the full depth of my emotions while ensuring I remained grounded and safe. I cried hard for a week, out of the blue – on the chiropractor’s table, driving in the car when a certain song came on, in the vegetable aisle at the grocery store, mesmerized by the beauty of the clouds- I couldn’t hold them in, and I didn’t try because I knew she was working her magic within me. And then I cried tears of gratitude for her support. 

The Sensory Experience: Tea and Tincture

As mentioned, I used Four Visions brand Bobinsana tincture and highly recommend their products—I’m slowly exploring more of their offerings and will share reflections as I go. I took a large dose—two full droppers in the morning and again at night—for about a week and a half. The effects were subtle at first, gradually deepening with each passing day. In the mornings, the tincture helped ground and center me, gently opening my heart. I noticed a tangible increase in patience and compassion for others, accompanied by a profound sense of gratitude and appreciation for life. Emotional insights surfaced with clarity, and I often felt a stronger connection to nature—something akin to a micro dose of psilocybin, but even more delicate and heart-focused.

At night, the tincture helped me sleep deeply, as my Oura ring tracked improved sleep patterns. I also experienced two nights of incredibly vivid, fun lucid dreams. My ability to remember and reflect on my dreams shifted dramatically during the dieta—each dream was clearer, more detailed, and easier to recall, with the feeling from the dream lingering in my body long into the next day.

The tea, ordered through Etsy from Peru, was a delicate, pleasant experience. Made from finely grated parts of the leaves and roots, it resembled a refined black tea in taste and smell. I enjoyed it with some loose rose buds and medicinal honey I brought back from Selcuk, Turkey, infusing it with an extra layer of love and healing. I also like to drink it chilled throughout the day or before bed. For deep emotional work and lucid dreams, I recommend the tincture as its stronger and more potent. 

Physical Healing: Body Pain and Inflammation

Beyond the emotional and spiritual healing, Bobinsana brought tangible relief to my physical body. I had been in the midst of an intense inflammation flare—gut discomfort, muscle pain with a burning sensation, skin issues—all of which were deeply impacting my mood, confidence, sleep, and overall well-being. As I began working with Bobinsana, I noticed a marked reduction in both pain and inflammation, which I believe was also supported by the dieta itself, known for its anti-inflammatory benefits. The relief was undeniable. I began to feel more at ease and at home in my body—a lightness and fluidity returning that I hadn’t felt in quite some time, gently amplifying the overall healing process

Mental and Emotional Transformation

Perhaps the most profound shift I experienced was in how I began to engage with the world around me. The deeper connection to myself that Bobinsana fostered made me more present and emotionally available. I found myself processing compassion with ease, even in challenging interactions. In the past, I might have reacted defensively or distanced myself, but now, I approached difficult conversations with empathy and understanding.

Bobinsana seemed to encourage me to embrace the feminine qualities of compassion, patience, and understanding. It was a reminder that true strength lies in the ability to open your heart and trust the process. As I felt more nurtured and safe, I noticed my energy shift. Manifestations started to present themselves, old friends reached out, and I began to see the world through a brighter lens. I felt overwhelmed with gratitude, and many times, I found myself crying tears of amazement, appreciating the beauty of life despite the challenges I had been navigating in this transitional period.

The Lucid Dream Adventure

One of the most magical aspects of my experience with Bobinsana was lucid dreaming. After a few days of the dieta, I experienced an extraordinary all-night adventure that felt more vivid and real than anything I had experienced in decades. In the dream, I was flying freely through the sky with friends—feeling in control, unafraid, and completely liberated. The clarity of the dream was profound, and the sense of freedom I felt stayed with me long after I woke up.

It was as if Bobinsana herself had guided me on this dream journey. The dream was a powerful symbol of liberation and a message to me: I needed this medicine. We had found each other, and together, we were working through deep healing. It felt like magic.

She also gave me the gift of a night at the theatre with my favorite actor crush, Timothée Chalamet!  The dream was so real, so natural and most importantly, so fun! I can certainly pull out some larger themes from the dream that feel relatable to my current state, but I woke up feeling giddy, silly and delighted. And that feeling stuck with me for a few days. Hell, it still brings so much joy – the essence and the details of the dream are still vivid, which is unusual for me, and certainly attributed to using Bobinsana.

Integration: The Aftermath and Continuing Connection

The changes I experienced during my time with Bobinsana didn’t fade once the physical experience ended.. My emotional resilience was stronger, my connection to my feminine energy was deeper, and my ability to connect with others in a compassionate way had been enhanced.

Bobinsana had cracked me open in the most beautiful, gentle way, and I felt a profound sense of gratitude for her presence in my life. I also realized how much the dieta itself had contributed to the depth of our connection—how the simplicity of removing comfort foods and committing to daily communion with nature had created a clear, open channel for her to work through me. These practices didn’t just prepare me for the experience—they laid a foundation for continued healing long after the dieta officially ended.

Closing

My experience with Bobinsana was deeply transformative and gave me the confidence to connect with plant allies on my own. Through her powerful feminine energy, she guided me into deep emotional, physical, and spiritual healing—helping me reconnect with myself, open my heart, and release long-buried grief, sadness, and anger. As these stuck emotions moved through me, my body responded too: the inflammation and pain that once felt overwhelming began to ease, making space for lightness, resilience, and renewal.

Much of this release also happened in the dreamworld, where vivid, lucid journeys allowed me to process painful emotions in ways I hadn’t accessed in years. It was a reminder that true healing touches every layer of our being—the emotional, the physical, and the unseen.

Working with Bobinsana taught me that plant medicine isn’t something you “use”—it’s a relationship you enter into with respect and devotion. Through the dieta, prayer, meditation, and daily communion with nature, I learned that healing happens when we listen, surrender, and trust the process.